Got much trouble now

Although I always smile face in front of my friends

but I really got many trouble in my heart that they can't understand.

Like my fb status announce just now:
[Money really is a big boss now! Ishh,I really need many many
money now!No any people can help me! I really don't want to give
up and choose the way which I don't like! Can I ? Or I should give up
my claim in submission to my parent's wishes? I hate now! Can u give me
an authourity to choose my path? I swear I will be responsibility]

Yup,is actually I need more freedom to choose my way.

but I can't~My grandmum said she will give me money to study.

but I really don't want use her money~If mu grandpa knows it,he

100% will scold my grandmum~My parent want me study F6 first

but I really don't want~Should I obey to them words? Not I am not filial,

but I want to choose myself! Can u obey me one time?

It was the time I need to make my decision~If I fail,I will not regret.

I really grew up already.MUM AND DAD.